Wow! There is so much to experience, and I am so sorry for what you have gone through!

My own experience was that in my first fifteen years of life, my family lived a charmed life. Sadly, the next 20 made up for lost time. Within this time, we lost our matriarch, my grandfather succumbed to senility, lost my entire immediate family one person at a time within 26 months.

My adult life has been one of continual recovery.